After having gone through a metric fuck-ton of resumés, many first-round interviews, and a sum total of only three people who got to the technical interview (two of which bombed it), it’s become apparent to me that my current workplace simply can’t replace me. At least, not without a lot of luck — it’s nearly impossible to find someone with the necessary management skills and tech skills, who will be willing to work for the salary that they can afford. They got lucky with me originally because I was a White Wolf fan boy, and not quite yet out of engineering school when they hired me. So I was willing to take (far) less-than-average pay for the job.
So, seeing the writing on the wall, I gave the company owners two options. One: July 30th, hell or high water, would be my last day. Two: I remain with the company, contingent upon certain non-negotiable demands being met.
They chose option 2, and I’m satisfied that I will be able to find the personal and professional growth that I’ve felt has been lacking in my current position. In fact, they went above and beyond my demands — for example, I demanded a raise, they gave me a bigger raise, saying they thought I deserved more. As well as the promise of “decent-sized raises, especially in the next two review periods.”
This was a really tough decision to make — the White Wolf guys really are like family to me, and I’ve always wanted to be a game programmer (specifically, for RPGs). And the perks of working for White Wolf are nothing to sneeze at: on-staff chef providing free breakfast and lunch daily (and dinner two nights a week), cool-ass custom-made gothic “cubicles” (more like 4-man work areas), the most awesome work environment in the history of man, full benefits package with healthcare included in salary, a gym, a never-empty keg fridge in one of the conference room named “The Enabler,” monthly alcohol-soaked cookouts, etc. And more than anything, I miss my old boss, Chris McDonough. Having an awesome boss makes any job palatable, and having an awesome boss at an awesome company is exponentially better.
It is still possible that I might go in that direction eventually; I’ll be keeping my ear to the ground for possible college grads whom we might be able to train up to replace me. But if that does happen, it won’t be any time soon.
This does take a lot of stress off of me, though. In addition to everything else that’s been weighing on me lately, I was trying to learn a new programming language, and I’ve felt split in too many directions at once. That’s really been getting to me these past few months — I really can’t accept performing at anything less than my best, and I’ve been too unfocused to do my job as effectively as I can. Also, I won’t have to worry about money quite so much any more, which is another big weight off my shoulders. This means that I should be able to visit some of you that I wouldn’t otherwise be able to, even if it’s just for a weekend trip.
Overall, I feel as if there’s a weight off of my shoulders, but at the same time I feel a sense of loss. But though I won’t be around the White Wolf crew on a daily basis, I am still invited to the company parties at least.